Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

The war is over, The battle is won.
Tired and victorious, a soldier can collapse
He may reunite with his family, his wife and son
No more grenades and bombs, no plans or maps

But the war goes on, behind his eyes
Relief suppressed, mind alert
His dreams are consumed by the blood and cries
Of those whom he killed and those left hurt

Alone at night, the battle rages
Singular in purpose, to constantly haunt
And it will continue through the ages
To punish the soldier, to jeer and taunt

Adrenaline pumping, till its uncontrollable
His brain tries to explain, his body does not heed
Images burnt into his skull make him unable
To rest, and find the peace that he needs

One day, Exhausted, he will no longer decay
With paranoia filling him to the brink
And like a flood all the hurt and guilt wash away
As the peace and relief begin to sink in

But till that day, this carries on
Him fighting a battle he just cannot win
Hopeless and confused, conflicted and torn
He repents for his ordered sin

The Stalkers' Suicide Note

To whom so ever it may concern

Unfortunate enough to find me now

Allow me to explain this troubled turn

Of events. The who, the why, the what and the how.

The first time I saw her, the first time we met

I was blown away, dazzled and amazed

She was so sensational, one could never forget

She left me speechless stunned and dazed.

From then the need to see her just grew

To watch the dimples in her cheek when she smiled

To see her soft, gorgeous hair as it flew

When she danced and leapt like something wild.

She saw me once for a second or two

Our eyes met across the hall

It was in that moment that we both knew

That it was love, and I was about to fall.

Her skin was porcelain, pristine and white

Her soft pink lips were designed to mesmerize

Like and angel, she’d glow in the morning light

Entrapping me with her emerald eyes

She moved like a goddess, both fierce and kind

And I watched her whenever she was near

I loved her darkness, her light and anything I could find

Without her, it was like I wasn’t here.

Over the months our love affair bloomed

Our need for each other grew strong

The unsaid words had me consumed

I stopped caring for right or wrong

I hungered to touch her, to be a little closer

I saw her invite me nearer with her eyes

She was with him for show. He was just a poser.

And it was the same with the other guys

But what we have is a true romance

A forbidden love, destined and great

No one else even stood a chance

Why spend all this time fighting fate.

We couldn’t be together, she and I

But I wanted to hold her, to keep her and smell her sweet scent

She was too afraid of them to let herself try

And I knew what that meant

They wouldn’t let us be together, it wouldn’t be allowed

But life is small compared to our love

So why be miserable and apart in a crowd

When we could be happy and united up above.

With a story like ours, fabled and taboo

It cannot end riding into the sunset

There was only one clear thing to do.

For her to truly become Juliet.

And for me to follow her into this eclipse

Shed the pain and stop being sad

I shall take the same poison that touched her lips

Like the kiss we never had

After her mothers untimely demise.

What do you say to someone when their whole world comes to a grinding halt?
And they look around,
At life in motion, puzzled.
The people did not pause and busses did not break down.
The traffic lights were working and cars were honking.
The beggars on the road running up to cars performing amusing tricks for money.
People on the street walking, policemen in the corner talking.
Nothing stopped.

The world just ended, didn't they know?

Black White and Blue

In a dream world I wouldn’t be me. Infact, I probably wouldn’t be a person. I’d be able to fly, to soar, in a midnight blue sky with small bright stars lighting my way.

No bother, no order to please

No rules to obey, nothing need say

I look up at the starry expanse; I feel no blood on my hands

I look to the right at the flying bird, my bright blue companion unsaid and unheard

On my left is an empty space, of someone yet to join the chase

Down below a civil glow, they have nothing to prove and nothing to show.

I fly on with the bird, not fast nor slow. It doesn’t leave. it shall not go.

The empty space besides me calls. The little height I had gained now falls.

I’m tempted to drop down to the glow. Plunge back into what I know.

Forget my height and simply dive. It’s closest to death when you feel most alive.

I need to search, I need to find, I need to leave my truth behind

I need to get back in the air. I need to love and forget all care.

It is simple, such a complex thing, I need to locate what the present won’t bring.

I need to be hypnotized, by those dark and fiery eyes.

Just to find another soul to match this night as black as coal.

So dark and deep and sinister one shies away, craving for dangerous play

The silent bird looks my way. its eyes convey what it cannot say.

His look will not make me cower. I know what I want in this hour.

I need right now that other soul, to guide blind me, through this rabbit hole.

I need his evil and his sin, I need his darkness, I need my kin.

I need the black to my white; I want him by my side tonight.

I want him to fly and lie with me, but he’s too far to touch and to far to see.

I loose my balance and my sight; to stay asleep and keep my flight

But without a yin, the yang will sink: nothing left to show but a broken link

Fair Desdemona

Poem based on Desdemona, from Shakespeare's play, Othello.

Fair Desdemona,

Fell in love as the spied the moor

Fair Desdemona,

Heard his tales, reveled in his tells

And then she knew for sure

Fair Desdemona,

Was inexplicably devoted to her dark knight

Fair Desdemona,

After a shrouded courtship and much impending gossip,

Gave up her maiden name in the dead of night

Fair Desdemona,

In honor of her spouse, fiercely fought

Fair Desdemona,

Betrayed her father, as he cried harder

Deception was not what he had taught

Fair Desdemona,

Fragile against the general's sooty muscled chest

Fair Desdemona,

Faithful love she displayed, she never strayed

From othello's chamber of rest

Fair Desdemona,

Her love suddenly seemed unrequited

Fair Desdemona,

received a rude little bark and a twisted remark

The affection received was now limited

Fair Desdemona,

Unaware of the implications of what she said

Fair Desdemona,

Accused of cheating, she got a beating

Though she never left blind Othello's bed

Fair Desdemona,

Honest and pure to her very last breath

Deluded Othello,

Who thought Cassio lusted her, never trusted her

Ignorent that she loved him to death.