Schizophrenia

The words arnt enough

The actions dont suffice

The message doesnt penetrate

Your armour cold as ice

The philosophy goes unheard

The theology wont stand

In desperate attempts to reach you

I sink ignored into the sand

No pressure or reasoning has effect

There is nothing that I can enforce

And you sit innocently in the corner

And there is not a line i didn't cross.

And you still sit there, vacant expression and all

Lost and afraid and persecuted by your invisible demon

In awkward silent stance like your rag doll

In pain and delusion without reason.

I fall.

You sit there in silence

I cry

You don't realize you're passive violence.

I try to explain but you don't believe me

But this is not my fault

I want the best for you but thats not what you see

I loose you by default.

Now a time has come where I'm more like you

I blame science and your mother and God.

Why would they do this to me too?

Give me you, but then turn out to be fraud.

When I meet you I keep emotions cold

When I meet you I match your mute

I'm stiff and ignore the conversation turning to mould

I sometimes wonder if you meant, all along to pollute.

But being like this is the only way to deal

You're disease has infected me through loosing my love

And even though we may never heal

I'll never regret turning into what i was always secretly afraid of.

Melting into madness with you made my life even when i was persecuted and cornered.

Because, for a short while, it meant that I knew you, and I am honored.